End 38

I’M FEELING SLOW. VERY SLOW. WAAA!!!

I have a cousin.

I call him Boy.

We’re the same age.

We are close.

And become closer lately.

We share the same problem.

We have friends trouble.

He’s coming to the house.

Oh, it’s gossip time!

End 37

As we grow up. 

We learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let us down probably will. You will have your heart broken and you will break others. You will fight with your best friend and maybe even fall in love with them and you will cry because time is flying by.

So, take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely and love like you have never been hurt before. Life comes with no guarantee, no time outs, and no second chances. You just have to live life to the fullest.

Tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone’s hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be flirty and smile until your face hurts.

Don’t be afraid to take chances to fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second spent angry or upset is every second of happiness you can never get back.

Be true to yourself.

I'm glad that  I've done all of it.

Life would never be the same without it.

Its a blessing upon me that will be appreciated always and forever.

End 36

I’m hoping that my wish will come true.

Say it is please. :(

End 35

Say that I'm changed
Say I'm different
Maybe I finally understand
Say I've let go
Say that it's obvious
I tell myself over and over
And over and over again

I'm ready
I'm ready to believe

Tell me I'm strong
Tell me I'm weak
Tell me I'll never, never bend
Tell me I'm fire
Tell me I'm cold
Cold I tell myself over and
Over and over again

I'm ready
I'm ready to believe

Because I want to feel my heart
Yes I want to feel my heart
Yeah I want to feel my heart

So tell me I'm strong
Tell me I'm weak
Tell me I'll never understand
But I'm ready
I'm ready to believe

End 34

Pillow in the car was terrorized by Zafirah.

End 33

It rains.

Everyday.

Hence the fever.

Since last Saturday I’ve been feeling a little bit under the weather.

True to the words, yesterday I can’t get out of my bed.

My body ache.

My heads pounding.

My stomach can barely holds anything.

And I’m no fan of any kind of medicines.

Which doesn’t help me at all.

*sigh*

Eventually, Ibu forced me to eat and I managed to swallow something.

·         2 pieces of bread.

·         A glass or warm milk.

·         Antibiotics.

·         Panadols.

·         Cough syrup.

It’s a lot of work for me. :)

But by night, I’ve been feeling a little bit better. Yeay!

And I went to sleep hoping that it will last.

I woke up this morning and my wish works half way.

The fever gets worst.

So, went to the clinic.

Got myself a shot and more meds. Blergh!!!

Went home feeling a little bit of myself.

I decided not to take the fever seriously and went do the dishes.

Big mistake!!!

Doing chores while you are high is highly not suggested.

I sliced my thumb open. :P

Okay.

Now I have pain that comes from fever.

Pain that comes from sliced thumb.

And I’m feeling high. :D
A great day altogether~

End 32

YOU'RE ORIGINAL.

CANNOT BE REPLACED.

AND YOU KNOW IT.

:)

End 31

Hey,

I’m done.

With all your drama.

With all your words.

All I’m asking is for you to stay away.

That’s all.

So please as my last wish,

Do it.

p/s: Kau nak kata aku emo, silakan. I know better!! And yes I'm breaking our promise.

End 30 : Towards A Better Future

Sometimes pictures tells more than words.

End 29

I have a friend. A very close one I can say. Up to a level that no one can reach before. I've seen him cry. I've seen him laugh. I've seen in a state of craziness. Yes, we're that close. Few months back, he's in a big problem. Big enough that quitting study has become an option. Eventually, he came out of the problem and become happy.

Here comes the problem. He forgets me. True. We've made packed of not leaving and always have each others back. But at the moment, I feel like I'm the only one been keeping the promise. Its very hard for him to pick up my calls. And my text? He never replied anymore. Even in messenger. What the heck right?

I tried very hard thinking nice thing at first. Maybe he's busy his sports. No credit. But I'm running out of excuse already. I'm hurt and disappointed. This is not the first time you did this to me. I'm tired of it already. I pegged you as someone I can talk to. Someone I can cry to. But look at how the way you treat me? And please... Boyfriend or girlfriend doesn't enter into this equation.

Truth to be told, I'm not going to make you listen to me anymore. I'm not going to try anything anymore. Feel free to do whatever you want. Because I'm cutting you out of my life. Go away.

End 28

I am neither sweet nor lady like.

I don’t have the girly element in me.

I do what I want and I don’t think about others.

I am an independent girl.

Yet, lately I can feel some changes in me. J

I know why but as I always said,

There are certain things that are better left unshared.

But, I know you can guess what it is, right?

To you,

I know there are times that you feel that there is nothing we can talk about.

But, silence is sometimes enough for me.

To know that you are there for me is more than I can hope for.

Distance may separate us but my love for you grows with

every steps needed to reach you.

To you,

Never worry ok?

Yes, I do cry.

Yes, I do go out alone at night.

And yes, I do crazy things.

But all this is part of who I am.

I will try to behave appropriately. But not in the nearest time.

Old habits die hard. Lalala~

Even so, all I want to say is,

I love you and Missing you all the time ^_^

~ALIN~

End 27

SNAP

It’s my blog.

It’s my writing.

And you care why?

End 26 : Losers :)

Pictures and Photography.

Anyone can learn how to snap a picture. But not everyone has the gift to capture the perfect photo. Perfect may seems too big of a word. Let's just say a great photo. I wake up super early today. Usually there's something for me to do to kill the boredom. But not today. With nothing much to do, I went to my pc and switched it on. As usual, the first web to hit is The FB. :) . Replied and commented on few status. Okay, I understood the senget2 thing already. Hahaha! :D 

Eventually I got bored with that too. So, I start surfing through my friends profile. There are few of them who has taken interest in photography. But. But. Here's the thing. Among the few, very little of them has a pair of great eyes. Yes. They do wedding photography. They do models. But I don't see anything special in their pictures. Some may say who am I to say such things? I don't even know how to operate a DSLR. So what? Even if I don't, I am entitled to my own opinion.

I like pictures that shows movement of life. Activities that tells people how your life runs. Pictures that when you look at it, you can sense the story behind it. Like outdoor activities. Picnics. Hiking. Beach time. Or just two people sitting together. That's what I like to see. There are many subjects out there. Why limit to taking photos of a single person? And a lady? Why can't you use a guy? Or your close friends. Aren't they good enough to be your subject? Or try taking some wild life pictures. That will be worth I might think.

Back to the I don't know how to operate a DSLR. Don't say such things when you also don't know how. You own expensive camera. Superb lenses. But your picture? I'm not gonna say anything about it. True. You can edit those pictures. To be honest, your before and after pictures? They look the same. No difference. And you claim you are a great photographer? Go drown yourself mister! >< There's nothing about your pictures that shows how great you are. Wanna take fabulous pictures? Go get a life first!

p/s: I'm pissed!

End 25

12.30 a.m

I see people come in and out.
Bustling around looking for seats.
All in pair.
All with someone.
I looked around and saw laughter.
Saw hands holding tight.
Saw exchanging whispers.
I looked into the mirror and all I see is myself. *sigh*

I couldn't take it anymore.
I grab my keys and left the place.
Drove around with no thoughts in mind.
Blank.
Rolled down the window and feel the midnight air.
I've been thinking. Hard.
I came up with nothing.

Helpless. And insecure.
There's nowhere I can turn now.
I feel numb. I feel empty.
The city lights helps.
To be able to see the whole city from the top is worth it.
Yet, I can't remember how I reach here.

Life is never fair I told myself.
I just have to learn to deal with it.
And its time for me to go home.

End 24 : I Run To You

I run from hate
I run from prejudice
I run from pessimists
But I run too late

I run my life
Or is it running me
Run from my past
I run too fast
Or too slow it seems

When lies become the truth
That's when I run to you

This world keeps spinning faster
Into a new disaster so I run to you
I run to you baby

And when it all starts coming undone
Baby you're the only one I run to
I run to you

We run on fumes
Your life and mine
Like the sands of time
Slippin' right on through

And our love's the only truth
That's why I run to you

End 23

Jealousy.
Please go away.


I know I have no rights or anything over at that time.
Its just I'm surprised to see it.
And to know it weeks later?


I'm sorry for being like this.
And I need stop behaving childish.
*sigh*


:(

End 22

Yesterday.
My wish to eat mac and cheese achieved.
Thanks to Yana.
She came to my house.
I haven't seen for a looooooonnnggg time.
Aha. Its gossiping time.

She came around 3 o'clock.
Chatting in my room first.
Then we head straight to Kenny's.
The only place I know to have delicious mac and cheese.
We ordered our food and then the fun begins.

Turn out I've missed so many things while studying in Perak.
Too many had happen while I'm there.
But its ok.
Now I'm up to date with all the news. :D
We talked our friends.
Our boyfriends. ><
Our life.
Our studies.
We talked about everything.
For almost 4 hours all we do is talk.

That doesn't include in the car conversation.
I realize I miss her so much.
All in all, it was a great evening for me yesterday.
Thanks Yana!! :)

Love,
Alin.

End 21

My head hurts.

From too much thinking.

Thinking about my future.

I'm no longer a kid who needs people to decide for me.

I'm almost a grown up that I'm able to make decision on my own.

But, its hard.

Never knew it would be this difficult.

Its simple but affected by so many others.

I need guidance. I need help.

I need a shoulder to cry on.

I need a moment on my own.

Yet, alone time is hard to find.

End 20

Wishlist:

1. Ice-cream
2. Doughnuts
3. Shawls
4. Tulips
5. Books.
6. Spaghetti
7. Mac and Cheese
8. Carl's Junior
9. Ice Skating
10. Movie Marathon

I need a partner to fulfill all of the above. *sigh*

End 19

11.11.2010


There I sat alone.
Looking at the wide ocean.
The sound of the wave.
The caress of the wind.
The chirping of the cricket.
I've never felt this peaceful before.


Later, you came.
You sat at the end.
We talked.
I asked, is it true?
Or were you just humoring your friend?


Silence. Darkness.


You asked me to sit near you.
You take my hand and and said,
Do you remember what I've said before?
Of course I do.
Every single word.
You asked me to wait.


Then, in the dim light of morning and darkness,
you told me everything.
You told me that I'm the only one in your heart.
And the one you love.
Those words. Those times. Those gestures.
Those are the things that would never leave my mind.


That night, was the best I've ever had,
Thanks to you.
My worries are all erased.
I felt bless, luck and fortunate to have you in my life.
Though time envy us, I don't mind because I know
that I'm always gonna be yours.


Love,
Time we've spent may be short.
But is the time I cherish most.
I may be cranky.
Stubborn.
Spoiled.
And sometimes annoying.
But I do hope that you accept me as I am.


Because no matter what, I know I love you. So much.


Till then,
I miss you. :)

End 18: Miss You lah.

The Knight and Shining Armor :)

End 17

Its finals of finals.

Yesterday morning I've taken my last paper for me to complete my diploma.

That would mean that I'm about to leave this place.

I'm happy about it.

But not as much as I enjoyed it before.

The end of that paper marks the beginning of my time spending with him.

I'm leaving for KL this morning.

As the departing time grew nearer, it is decided that we should spent our few last moment together.

I felt weird.

Never in my life I'm like this before.

Those who knows me often ask me to be more lady like.

But the truth is I just can't.

Why should I change just for people to accept me.

I'm glad when he told me that he accepts me the way I am now.

Yeah. All we do is cruise the road.

There's nothing much can be done here.

No place just to hang out.

Plus I'm so tired that I keep yawning.

I think I even felt asleep while he is talking to me.

Sorry dear? ♥

Even so, I hope that last night will make up this coming separation.

I know that I'm going to take it one step a day to override the suffer.

I have no idea how I'm going to survive.

But I'm going to try.

I'll remember all your words.

And I'm going to miss you. Very much.

That I can promise.

Till then,

Love you.

End 16

Today is gonna be a happy day. Hopefully. I'm going back to my college. Though I'm not happy about that. Its something else. Or should I say someone else. :) I have nothing much to write actually its just this is gonna be the last entry for the rest of the week. I'm off to having fun with my friends.

I can't wait to see you!~
^^

End 15

I'm on the cloud of happiness.
Never felt like this before.
Thanks for the call dear~

You're too sweet :)

End 14

BUNGA

CINTA

Haaa.. Kinda like it. Haish~

><

End 13 : You crossed my mind.

Dear,


A whole day goes by.
I didn't see you.
I didn't look at you.
But I'm glad that I got to hear your voice at the least. ^_^


I miss you.
Even when I see you everyday.
Even when we spent our time together.
I wonder what you're doing now.


I never thought that I would ever feel like this.
Its nice.
Its heart warming.
Its one thing that can make me smile like a silly person. ><


I have a new ritual now.
Everyday, before I went to sleep, I will take my phone.
I'll go to the inbox and read whatever you send to me for the day.
And I do the same thing when I wake up.


Some might say that I'm too corny doing that.
I don't care.
Its the only way for me to feel near to you.


I just want to let you know.
That whatever's gonna happen, I'll be brave about it.
I know there are things that bothers your mind now.
So, I am letting you deal with it without any interruption. Ok?


All I hope is, in the end, good news is what awaits for me.


Till then,
Alin :)


p/s: I have no idea how to survive this coming holiday. :(

End 12

Mission:
Uniqlo.
New sweater.

10.30 a.m:
To the train station.

11.15 a.m:
Arrived at Bukit Bintang.

11.30 a.m:
Arrived at Farenheit88. *shocked*
The line is way way way too long!!!
Spiraled out in many lines.

12.00 p.m:
Still in line. Getting bored.
But getting close.

12.45 - 3.00 p.m:
Finally, at the entrance. Yeay!
Once entered, looked around and feel kinda panic.
Too many choices to look at.
Decided too separate.
Looked around and then call Ayah.
I'm going back there tomorrow. Maybe.
Choose my sweater.
He chose his pants.
Fitting rooms.
Pay time.
All of it in long lines.


3.00 p.m onwards~
Eat.
Went back to Uniqlo.
Then, all is done.
Dead tired.
Legs aching.
But happy all the way.
:)

Thank you.

The Fleece's

The Tote's

End 11

Constantly on the play:

Lady Antebellum - Need You Now

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all
It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now (wait)
Ooo, baby, I need you now


Couldn't go back to sleep.
Awake on the bed thinking of you.
*sigh* Its only for a few hours and I'm already like this.
If I go back earlier than I say I would, will it be fine for you?
Aha. Keep on dreaming Nurdia!

End 10

At home and In love. :D

End 9

Finally, the end almost arrives.
Almost. Not that it arrived already.
Today is my 2nd last paper before I officially end my finals of finals.
The next paper is in 10 days time.
Yeay! ><

I'm going home.
Need to clear my head and get some home scenery.
Rindu rumah sgt!!!

And you,
I'll be back soon.
No worries.
And behave while I'm gone~
:)

Alin

End 8

REMOVED

End 7

Measurement of Civil Engineering Works

I was hoping to get an A for this subject. I know I can do it. But then I did the stupidest thing ever. I check the drawing again. Damn it. I've a mistake. A mistake that is so silly I couldn't help to cry over it. T_T I know there's something not right while I was answering the paper. Why do I have to realize hours after the exam ends? There goes my A. Flying out through the window. :'(

I am supposed to sleep now. There's still two more to go. The next is tomorrow morning. I need to rest and recharge my brain. But I just can't. I wanna talk to someone but I couldn't. No one is around.Not even him. :( I guess I just have to pretend that I'm okay for a moment. I know I''m good at that. -_-

I'm going home tomorrow.

And I'm gonna miss you.

End 6

I cry when I'm in pain.
I cry when I'm sad.

And I cry when I'm mad.

:(

End 5

There are times when you feel likes you are close to someone and then you guess wrong. Things are working out perfect for me at the moment. Minus the defect here and there its almost as what I was wishing for years. My studies are about to end. I'm leaving this place soon. I have great friends. I think I'm over the moon :D But, why do I have this weird feeling that I can't seem to shake it off? 

What should I do?

End 4

Saya mahu pulang.
Sebab tempat saya berada sekarang dah takde apa2. *Except for him la :D*
Orang tgk saya as if I'm happy all the time.
Not true. Not true.
I do feel sad. I do feel betrayed. I do feel annoyed.
Tapi, saya tak pernah tunjuk dekat org.
I don't go around moping and sulking.
Dapat apa?
Org tgk pun kusut.
If there is moment where you see me in those kind of state, that means I am
stressed out beyond the limit.
Prinsip saya simple, time enjoy, enjoy.
Tak perlu nak tunjuk yang awak tu tengah susah hati or whatsoever.
Awak keluar enjoy untuk happykan diri.
Bukan nk bagi jd lagi kusut.

Macam last night, saya keluar berkaraoke *sangat best*
I do this often.
But one thing I kinda take pity on my friend.
I have a friend that I know who is facing huge problem.
And I know that last night he sang out those kind of songs to releases his tension.
Saya tahu sebab before gerak ke karaoke spot tu dia bercerita.
As he sang those songs, my other friends keep teasing.
Dah cakap dah jangan. Tapi diorg buat jugak.
Boys. Takde consideration betul.
Next time, let him be.
And you, stand tough ye~.

And back to me again.
Kusut jugak semalam.
Gara-gara masa depan sendiri.
Bak kata Nurul, 'Benda simple je lin' =.='
Haish~
Tapi saya sudah ok sekarang.
Karaoke moments and 'pillow-talk' on the way back really helps.
Especially towards the end. :D

That's it for now. Have to go study.

Till then,
Alin :)