Degree 122

Bila mana masa boleh diputar kembali kepada yang lebih awal.

Kalau dulu memang tak mahu balik pergi masa yang lepas. Sebab dulu rasa masa sekarang yang ada sangat berharga. Sangat bermakna. Kalau boleh, kalau bolehlah nak bekukan masa yang sekarang tu supaya boleh bawak pergi mana mana.

Tapi sekarang, kalau boleh nak balik pada masa yang dulu. Tak lama. Dua tiga hari pun cukup. Supaya apa yang jadi hari ni boleh dielakkan. Huh.Tapi apa yang dah jadi orang kata jangan dikenang. Jangan diungkit. Mana mungkin jangan dikenang jangan diungkit. Bukan sikit kesan yang akan datang. Banyak.

Hari ini peperiksaan pagi petang. Pagi 3 jam. Petang 3 jam. Hari ini hari Jumaat. Penghulu segala hari. Penghulu hari ini petangnya mula lambat kerana solat itu penting. Kertas 3 jam yang pagi tak boleh jawap maka macam entah apa apa. Kertas 3 jam yang petang boleh jawap tapi masih rasa macam apa apa.

Subjek yang dah belajar hampir 4 tahun. Tapi masih tak boleh buat. Bukan sebab tak tahu. Bukan sebab tak pandai. Tapi sebab masa tak cukup. Tak cukup sangat sangat. Tangan lenguh menulis. Tengkuk sakit membaca. Melukis. Menggaris. Segala semua benda buat dalam 3 jam.

Entahlah, tak tahu nak cerita hati sekarang macam mana. Kecewa. Marah. Sakit hati. Semua ada. Ikutkan hati dah tak mahu belajar dah. Tapi esok ada kertas lagi. Maka, diabaikan sementara perasan sekarang dan mari teruskan usaha.

ps: I can bid my wish for JPA's scholarship goodbye. That would be the most frustrating of all.

Degree 121

A quick one.

Suddenly, terasa sangat tak cerdik behave macam tu tadi. Kenapa Alin? Benda yang dia cakap betul. Esok exam. Kena study. Kena rehat. Kena cukup tidur. Kalau tak macam mana nak jawap soalan soalan exam nanti. Orang risau benda betul tapi awak nak jugak merajuk. Come on. Dah besar nak buat perangai macam kanak-kanak rebena. Tak comel langsung! -___-'

Sorry eh? 

Degree 120

HOMAIIIIIIIIIIIGODDDDDD

CTU553 BANYAK BETUL KENA BACA!!!!

ps: hari ini dengan rasminya saya diisytiharkan penat overload oleh ibunda. kerana instead of makan choki choki saya makan pen. okay mira. you can stop laughing now. and i really meant now. huh!

Degree 119

Weird. But this is me. This is how I am when I am studying. I can't study in a really quiet place. Nor I can't study in really noisy place. So, the solution is I will plugged in my ears and listens to music. But music sometimes can also be a little bit too uncomfortable for my study mode. I develop a new habit these few days of exam studying. I find myself more focus when I'm listening to the movie. Read that again, LISTENING. Not WATCHING. And note it is not a movie I haven't watch. Its movies I have indeed watch. Past few days, it has been Bones the Series, Pirates of the Carribean (all of them), Angels & Demons and also NCIS Los Angeles. You might think it is still a distraction but that is you. This is me we are talking about. Let it be weird, awkward, silly or even peculiar. I really don't care what you think of. Heh!!

Oh the other hand, I just wanna say this, I HATE COPYCATS!!! Please, please, please, please stop. Please stop doing what I am doing. Develop your own things. Don't do others. It is so annoying. Pffftt~

And for today, I am leaving you with this.

I think I've posted it before but can't remember when.

Read and ponder!

Everyday is a struggle,

Between what I want to say,

And what should I keep to myself.

And the words that manage to leave my lips,

Don't hurt me,

But they hurt everyone else.

So, I find myself in need of a pause.

I'm not sure why.

But I thinks that its because,

Of this desire to be what others want me to be.

Ps: It is always a pleasure to be with you. And I know you know it! :)

pps: oh, the shoes that I want is not available at the moment. and other
doesn't appeal to me. waaa.. i have no shoes for my convocation!

Degree 118

"yes even me, ada yang tak pernah bertegur pun masa diploma dulu but today, we’re kind of a close friends. [yes it is you my-dear-you-know-who]. we had done a lot of activities together and for me, this can be a good beginning to us to be more close to each other in the class for the next three semester. InsyaAllah." taken from  Mira :)

That wouldn't be me is it? Is it?? Is it?? If it is, awwww you are so SWEEEET!! I adore you very much my dear. Let's hope our friendship last even longer than that okay? Muah!! ♥♥♥ :)

Degree 117

I can't be in the library anymore. It's not just the noise. It's the place itself. I can't see myself be at the same table, at the same hours, alone. I just can't. I know I should have move on by now but I don't think I can. Not when you are the one who I am used to. Not when you are the one who I spend most of time with. I know you have moved on. And I know there won't be any hope for me anymore. I am trying to accept that.

People told me I should try even if it means its gonna hurt like you can't imagine. However, I can't pretend anymore. I can't be brave. So whatever you are doing as if this moment, I wish you all the best and good luck for this finals.

:'(

Degree 116

Of relationship.

"Things are not moving anywhere. I learned that I was not as okay as I thought I was. There are still unresolved matters. But let's not get the hopes up and pray only the best."

:) 

Degree 115

Of having fun.

Suffice to say that in 2 days I've managed to do all these.

1. Went dating with **** at Nando's.
2. Karaoke - I sang my heart out. :D
3. Eat at the best place ever.
4. Hanging out at Mamak's.
5. Gossiping.
6. Trash talk of others.
7. Heart matters intervention.
8. Sleeping in the car.
9. Meatballs at Ikea.
10. RIO at Curve.
11. Dinner at Vicchuda.
12. Sight seeing at the middle of the night.
13. Heart matters intervention (again).
14. McD's.
15. Not so truth or dare.
16. Sleeping in the car (again)

It was two days full with activities and every minutes spent was very worthy.

Degree 114

Of friends.

Last Saturday, I was once again pranked by my friends. By my very much beloved friends. Who knows after a week has passed by, they would still want to celebrate my birthday. I was very glad to have them in my life. the story goes like this:

I was at the PC fair when Iera called me where I am. I told her where I was and she told me that she wanna come to my house. Of course I said okay. She is one of the people I missed most. I rushed home only to find that Ibu is waiting for me to go for the new baju kurung fitting. I texted Iera saying that if she is to arrived let me know. She gets all worried and keep asking when I will be home. Things has started to look fishy at this time. Because I've asked her what time she's gonna come and she said in the afternoon. And she gonna come by train and maybe on foot. Shah Alam and KL is nowhere near for her to go on foot. But I let it go.

My fittings end up earlier than I expected so I waited for Iera at home. At one point, I was bored waiting I asked her is it okay if I take my shower first. She told me no because she almost at my house. Instinctly, I went to Ibu's room at peek at the window and I saw Iera in Fikri's car. Oh, little liar. I went out but only to come back inside because I forgot I wasn't wearing any tudung. Well, if its only Iera I won't be wearing it at all. While I was upstairs, Ramzul called me. I can't remember what he said because I passed the phone to Fikri. 

Fikri passed the phone back to me and while I was talking on the phone, SMACK! Someone throw an egg to me. I turn around and there was Ramzul. Grinning like a stupid cat. Along with Haq (I didn't see the tepung yet at this time) and Wawa who was busy recording. Oh, while I was laughing and cursing at the same time, Haq grab me and pour a bag worth of tepung on my head. Dammnn!!! Mereka kejam. Thanks god I haven't take my shower yet (that's why Iera told me not to!).

Apparently, Ibu was in this little prank also. But never mind that. I went upstairs and took my shower (finally :D). When I come downstairs, I was once again surprised by them. This time there was cake. SO SWEEEEEETTT!!! They sang and recorded how many video I didn't know. So we sat at the front of my house with the cakes - there was four of it. Ibu prepared some fruits while Iera and Wawa help me with the drinks. We talked and laughed like we always do. And then after the Maghrib prayer we went out for dinner.

It was a short one because Fikri need to go back to his hometown. But, I was happy and felt terribly blessed to have them as my friends. To, Iera, Wawa, Ramzul, Haq and Fikri, thank you very much dear friends!

ps: all the pictures and videos are not with me. sorry! ><

Degree 113

Of family.

I've managed to decreased my level of rindu to all my family members. Except for Kakak and Abang. Kakak is busy with her works and Abang is busy with his finals (as I sould be too!) Though I went back for only a few days, it was the best time ever. Pfftt!! All of the time spend with family are great. But I haven't seen Ayah and Ibu  for almost a month. We are connected only through calls and messages. Sad but study comes first according to Ayah.

So, I arrived home safely at 6 p.m. Due to the ETS accident my journey was late for 2 hours. I reached home with aching feet (I walked half way home when Ayah finally pick me up) but all of it seems to disappear upon seeing Ayah and Ibu's face. After salam, I went upstairs and dump all my bags. After a quick shower, I went downstairs and bergomol dengan Faris.

The next day was filled at PIKOM PC Fair in KLCC. I went there around 12 o'clock and it was already jam-packed with people surfing for the latest and cheapest gadgets. The fair was very huge and was very alive. I don't know whether I did go to all the booth or not. The road was like a maze I tell you.

That time when Ayah and me was in the car, he asked me will I go back to Seri Iskandar. I told him maybe Monday. He nodded and went on saying, "Bolehlah ikut Ayah pergi kenduri." I was like okay. Kenduri je pun. Makan best kot. But, my oh my. It wasn't what I expected at all. We start our journey at 8 (sanding pukul 12.30) but Ayah insist going on early. We fetched Faris and continued on. Me, Adik and Faris sat at the back. Well, Faris didn't actually sit because all the time he was on my lap (and crumpling my nice baju kurung I might add) but I love him dearly. So, it was okay. :)

Upon arriving, the time shows that it was only 10 in the morning. Awal betul sampai! Inside we go and salam all the necessary people. Faris still behave at this moment because all of his needs has been fulfilled. Milk, nap and constantly berdukung. Okay, I know this gonna sound very rude. But it was very hot that day. Very very very hot. It was like the wind is on vacation that day. I was getting cranky. Plus I was very hungry. And don't ask how is Faris acting. Being the clever me, I remembered when we first arrived there was a cyber cafe nearby. Immediately I went there because I know it will be equipped with air-conditioning. However, I was disappointed. The were too many people coming in and out. Still, I was happy even if it for a while.

Not soon after, Ibu came along and said it's lunch time. And I was disappointed once again. None of the food available are to my taste. I know. I know. I am bad. Ungrateful. But what can I do. The food doesn't look interesting at all. So, I took Faris from Ibu and went to the Surau. It was way better than the CC before. I didn't know why I didn't come to this place in the first place.

And in the Surau I changed my clothes. Took hundreds pictures of Faris. Record a few more thousands video of Faris. This happen because he refuses to sleep. Not soon later Ayah and Ibu join us. Ayah takes his nap before driving back home. All the time Faris poke his hands at Ayah and Ayah only smile. Grrr!! This little monster has captured Ayah's heart. Habislah kami!

Finally, it was time to go home. I didn'te remember much what happen during this trip back because it took me only 10 minutes (I think) to fall asleep. Same goes to Faris. Moving car is like a rocking baby chair for him. He went to sleep faster than we can count 1 2 3 until 10.

Degree 112

Guess what? I am a one lucky girl this month. See below!

Can you see it? Can you? I know you can~

Do feel jealous!

Hahaha :D

And I'm coming home this weekend. :)




Thank you so much NuffnangMY and TGVcinema :DD

Degree 111

When the distance that is already there expands.

Well, people never actually meant what they say. Or do they? I will never know. But one thing I do know is that there are times when I only tell the half truth. Like a friend of mine said before, you share your story with people you really cared for. People whom you can really trust. I am a private person. There are things that I prefer not to share. 

I am currently in my 2nd last week of class. And as usual at this time around, sleep will deprived of. Lots of food consuming. Days runs on caffeine. But who is to be blame? No one but yourself. Next time manage your time better. Eh, same goes to you Nurdia! -___-'

What I am really trying to say here is that I used to have a better sense of myself. I was never stressed out like I am now. I used to have who I can say companions to help me figure out things. To hear me whine. To wipe my tears. And to just holds my hand. I seems to have lost of all these. Hence, the when the distance that is already there expands. I see them having fun. I see them happy. I see them joking around. I see all of it. And I'm no longer part of it.

But, no. That doesn't make me sad at all. What did was, I know that I will never get to be like I used to be with them anymore. Things have change. The circumstances are different now. I wish that I wouldn't feel what I feel now but better let it out then let it stay inside eh?

*sigh*

I know I am not perfect. I am nowhere near that. 

Degree 110

1750

*BEP playing The Time*

caller ID: .Maharaja.

Conversation:

Maharaja: As'kum. Dah check dah duit?

Anakanda: Belum. Baru balik dari class. Kejap lagi Alin check.

Maharaja: Ok. Dah check nnt bgtahulah.

Anakanda: Baik.

Maharaja: Balance duit tinggal berapa? *Ayah was referring to my PTPTN*

Anakanda: Ada RM***. :DD

Ingat Ayah nak tanya itu je. Tapi ada lagi rupanya...

Maharaja: Takde nak balik ke? Minggu ni tak balik ke?

Anakanda: Minggu ni tak balik Ayah. Minggu depan baru balik. Sebab dah mula study week.

Maharaja: Jangan tak balik pulak.

Anakanda: Ye. Ye. Alin balik minggu depan.

Baru notice yang tiap kali memang niat nak balik Ayah mesti call. Sebab balik sebulan sekali je. So dia rasa macam lama sangat tak nampak anak perempuan dia yang seorang ni. :DD

Sekali lagi ingat sampai situ je conversation dengan Ayah. Sekali keluar pulak soalan yang buat I sengih tiada henti buat seketika. Hahaha!! ^____^

Maharaja: Kamu nak HP apa?

Anakanda: Eh? Eh? *buat2 terkejut*

Maharaja: Nak HP mcm mana ni?

Anakanda: Ayah nk bg HP macam mana. Alin tak kesah. Tapi tunggu Alin baliklah. Cari sama2. :D *nada segan nk bgtahu nk hp apa*

Maharaja: Nnt Ayah tgk2 la dulu. Lepas tu nnt Ayah bgtahu.

Anakanda: Ok. Pilih yang best2.

Maharaja: Yelah. Yelah. 

Conversation sampai situ je sebab Ayah nak balik. And lepas je letak phone terus tak sabar nak balik rumah. Ngeh3! To those yang tak tahu, HP yang I pakai sekarang ni umur dia dah 5 TAHUN. Pakai since matrix lagi. Housing dah bertukar berkali2. Keypad pun sama. Battery je yg tukar sekali. I think Ayah is giving me a new one because of my birthday yesterday. Or maybe because I am graduating this May.  Balik nanti kita tanya Ayah kita ye. 

p/s: Lepas hang up tu terus text Ayah nak hp apa. Vain gila. O.o

p/p/s: Aku tak kesah kau nak kata aku poyo or apa sebab apa yang aku dapat I work hard for it.

Degree 109

Degree 108

Sorry seems to be the hardest word.

Okay. Ayat itu tiada kaitan dengan entry yang bakal ditulis ini. Let's begin this story from the last post. That day I  skipped class due to excessive laziness and boredom. Eh, boleh pulak kan sebab tu skip class. Eh, boleh pulak tetiba kau taip dalam bahasa melayu. Hahaha. But that day was also a dark day for me. For us. :( My housemate's grandmother passed away. So, us being the concern friend followed her to the funeral. We went there straight after our last class. But, we can't stay long because of the replacement class that took place that night. We rush everything that day. And when finally we were able to catch our breath it was almost midnight. Time to rest.

The coming days we filled with lessons and assignments and and also preparation for our dinner. The preparation was so fun. And the theme makes it more challenging. We have to be colourful for our night. But eventually we managed to find all the accessories we need. *sigh of relief* Oh, oh before I lupa. On Friday I prepared spaghetti for my housemates. Super fun! Sambil sambil masak tu yang lain kemas kemas rumah. Rutin yang memang kami buat tiap kali datang hari Jumaat. Spaghetti sedap!

FUH! FUH!

Saturday, the day we all have been KINDA waiting for. Sebab pagi ada Family Day. And malamnya ada dinner. Maka jika pergi ke Family Day, kegelapan kulit sudah pasti. Bila kulit gelap nak make up untuk dinner mesti susah. Hadoi! Tapi still even dengan hati yang berat kami pergi juga. Turn out kami adalah orang yang PALING AWAL! Pada hal kitorg dah gerak lambat habis dari rumah. Tapi biasalah, when rules are not enforce people won't care. Apparently, our beloved mentor tidak ada hari itu. En.Mohmad kena attend kursus dekat Taiping. Sebab tu kot games yang kitorg main takde yang menang. Hahaha! :D Apart from that, my classmates open up a booth selling variety of foods. They did very well. Congrats guys and gals! Proud of you. 

Eh, eh. *peace*

Wondergirls!

Then come the time for our anticipated dinner. Anticipated ke? Dunno. I don't asked other. Well, that night was the night where we get to play dress up as much as we like. Looking nice is always a girls' favourite. Who can deny us the right to look beautiful? Starting around 6.00 pm we began our journey. Everyone bustled around the house. Some ironed their clothes. Some search for their lost accessories. Some were going through the cupboard looking for something to be add on to the outfit. Terasa macam sangat meriah rumah time tu. As for me, I dah duduk dekat table with my make up. Kena sembunyikan segala jerawat and parut dekat muka. Hahaha! :S During dinner I dapat duduk dengan my housemates terchenta and few other classmates. I rasa my table was the loudest out of all. Kitorg gelak at every single thing. Tak tahu kenapa. And there always someone who seems to be making jokes. Nasib baik duduk bawah kipas. If tak memang cair make up tebal I. @____@

Throughout the dinner byk nampak cute people. Eh, cute dress. Eh, salah. Cute people! Tapi one of the downside malam dinner tu is kitorg tak dapat makan sate. Bayar equal dgn orang lain tapi makan tak sama. Tak faham kenapa. And tak nak tahu kenapa. Perfomances time dinner pun best. Especially yang budak2 degree ni buat. Kelakar sangat ok! Dah hbs2 semua tu, tibalah saat yang dinantikan. Camwhoring session! *walaupun sbnrnya dari mula smpi ke hbs dinner camera tak berhenti snap gmbr* Excited wo! Semua orang nk show off baju masing masing. Kami bergambar tak igt dunia sampai ke tengah malam. And sampai ke rumah pun bergambar lagi. Bila dah nmpk pak cik guard semua pun macam okay okay cepat blah. Nanti kena saman. ^____^

House No.16

AP224 :)

That would be the end of my Saturday.

Moving on to Sunday.

I woke up to the feeling of sore all over my body. Huargh!!! Tak gemar sungguh. Then transfer2 gambar dinner to lappy. Haaa. Time ni la. Time ni lah saya yang cerdik lagi pandai dah delete folder yang ada SEMUA benda dalamnya. Dari gambar ke documents. Hilang semua. Dah cari dengan macam macam cara. And yes dah tgk recycle bin. If dalam tu ada, I wouldn't be in the state I am today. Tak percaya? Tanya kechik. Tanya housemates. 

Tapi dalam keserabutan folder hilang tu, housemates kita jadi sgt sweet! Diorg buat surprise untuk kita. Mula mula Piqa aka Nek Somel bgtahu kereta dia rosak. Mintak tolong tgk. So, kita pun pergilah. Sampai sana tanya tanya kenapa kereta rosak. Azma aka Bawang siap cakap lagi pasal aircond kot. Hahaha. Itu kelakar. Sbb aircond kereta tak boleh start. Then tetiba Zaf aka Anak Gajah bawak keluar cake. Alalala. Baik sgt diorg ni. Intan aka Satay pun ada jugak time. Then kitorg pun lepak tepi tasik sambil makan cake. Habis makan cake konon diorg nk jalan2 tepi tasik tu. KONON2 je la. Walaupun hakikat sbnrnya mereka ada tepung dan belon air yang nk dibaling. PERANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lawak habis. Second time makan tepung. Sedap. Muka pun dah ada bedak sejuk semula jadi. Habis main kitorang balik. And before balik tu I singgah gas station nak isi minyak Orang dekat kaunter tu gelak je tgk badan bertepung sana sini. I siap cakap dekat dia jgn ckp apa2 before dia bukak mulut lagi.

Fuh. Sampai rumah terus mandi. Kena rendam baju seluar jeans bertepung tu. If tak buat cepat2 lekat forever la. Okay, I cerita sampai sini je sbb lepas tu takde apa yg menarik dah yang berlaku.

Korang tahu kan aku sayang korang?

:)

I think that would be all. Good day everyone!

ps: all my files are thankfully recovered. Alhamdulillah. :D