Degree 158

cerita suka gembira :)

Degree 157.

Saya suka awak.

Tapi awak orang lain yang punya.

:(

Degree 156

wahai en.hati,

tenang sebentar boleh?

benda itu kecil sahaja halnya.

tapi mengapa sampai begini sekali kesannya.

makan tidaklah kenyang,

tidur tiada lena,

mandi tiada terasa basahnya.

wahai en.hati,

sejak bila kau berubah?

sejak bila kau bersikap sebegini?

ini bukan kau yang aku kenal.

kau yang dulu,

biar susah sekalipun masih mampu tersenyum,

masih mampu bergelak ketawa.

tapi kini?

oh, en.hati,

berubahlah.
ini hanya satu perjumpaan penentuan masa hadapan.

:')


ps:
pukul 2 datang cepat sikit boleh tak?

Degree 155

Random. 

Okebai.

sayang lah. sayang sikit.

Degree 154

if you think this is cheesy, you should see me in person.

Guilty :)

I never want to play the games that people play
I never want to hear the things they gotta say
I've found everything I need
I never wanted anymore than I can see
I only want you to believe

If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind)
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime
Then I'm guilty

I wanna give you all the things you never had
Don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy (be the other guy)
I never wanted to live a lie

If it's wrong to tell the truth
What am I supposed to do
All I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind)
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime
Then I'm guilty

Girl I followed my heart
Followed the truth
Right from the start it led me to you
Please don't leave me this way
I'm guilty now all I have to say

If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind)
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my hearts a crime
Then I'm guilty

What am I supposed to do
Then I'm guilty
All I wanna do is speak my mind
Guilty
Then I'm guilty
I'm prepared to testify
If it's wrong to do what's right then tell me about this feeling inside
If loving you with all my hearts a crime
I'm Guilty

Degree 153

i am homesick
:'(

Degree 152

After days of struggles.

Saturday. Yes. I went to the #OctTwtFest. Thanks to bunch of dear friends I manage to have fun. Lots of fun. The event was great. Got to meet new peeps. It was awesome. Though the queue was long but it was fine for me because I was excited. Didn't stay till the end. But excited and nervous is not a good combo. Because of it I didn't even took a single picture. Silly silly! Nevertheless, looking forward to those new friendships. *shakes hand*

The one and only picture.

Later that night, after dinner we pranked Haq for his birthday. He was so clueless that when attacked he can't do anything other than just accept it. I was satisfied to have my revenge to what he did on my birthday. He's going to get a week free calls and sms but unfortunately I left my phone with Iera. So there goes my opportunity. Too bad! There's more to the story but can't think of words to describe it. (._.)"

The birthday boy.

Happy Birthday Haq Andhar. May Allah blesses you. Always and All the time.
It was great to have you as a friend.
Many happy returns!

The Ladies Part 1.

The Ladies Part 2.

Sunday. Day to go back. But still manage to hang out with the freshly graduated Chegap and Chinox. Two funny guys that cheer me up very much. Congratulations Chegap on your convocation. :)


ps: it was so sad to not being able to hang out with you. no more planning next time. :(
pps: byk tgn buat peace dkt atas tu sbb nak tunjuk twitter bird je. okebai.

Degree 151

Let's brood.

Days. It has been days since my heart unsettled. Can't explain. Can't describe. Can't share. I feel like crying, laughing and keep silent at a times. Feels like going crazy without thinking of others. I have no ups just downs. And those downs keeps adding. One by one it stacks. Things won't get any better soon.

This little mind just couldn't cope with all the stumbles anymore. I keep tripping and no longer know how to stand up on my own. This is bad. The face nowadays betrays what the heart feels and it will continue until further notice. These shouldn't have happen I promised myself once. But I just couldn't help it.

I'm sorry for that I now keep relieving those old memory lane I have once walk through.



I'm out on the edge and I'm screaming my name
like a fool at the top of my lungs.

Sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright
but it's never enough.
Cause my echo, echo,
is the only voice coming back.
My shadow, shadow,
is the only friend that I have.

Jason Walker - Echo

Degree 150

Dissertations. Just a quick update.

Buat weekends and weekdays jadi tak menarik. Menghadap journals and segala bagai. Rupa pun dah tak semenggah mana. Heh. Stress. Semua tempat penuh dengan keluhan. Rungutan. Bebelan. Gara gara nak menggenggam segulung ijazah. 

Sabarlah Alin. Tak lama dah. Another year to go. Haiyak!!!

Degree 149

Jom tulis panjang panjang.

Otak sekarang sangat penat. Penat tahap petala ke lapan dah rasanya. Macam macam jadi dalam seminggu. Baik buruk cantik tak cantik semua ada. Pendek kata semuanya memerlukan otak ni berfungsi lebih dari kapasiti yang mampu. Kenapa? Mengapa? Bagaimana? Itu soalan soalan yang buat rambut yang tak berapa tebal ni semakin nipis. Haish. Tak menarik. Kalau berkait dengan preparation untuk dissertations proposal yang tengah beratur nak siap tu takpelah jugak. Ini jauh panggang dari api.

Tapi dalam dalam banyak masalah tu. Satu yang otak tak dapat terima dan masih diproses. Kalau bercerita dekat sini memang nampak yang tukang tulis ni buruk perangai kan. Tapi nak buat macam mana. Kadang kadang buruk perangai itu perlu. Mula mula marilah saya bagitahu yang bahawasanya saya ini gemar berkawan. Saya tak memilih dalam berkawan. Janji orang tu dapat terima saya yang tak berapa betul ni then berkawanlah kita. And jauh sekali la nak bawak kawan tu jauh melencong ke sana ke mari. Tak pernah terlintas pun niat tu dekat hati.

Makanya, bila kita ditimpa masalah yang tak dijangka tu rasanya macam berat sangat bahu ni. Rasanya sakit sangat kepala. Rasa macam nak marah dekat semua orang. Rasa macam nak merajuk dengan semua orang <<< okay ini takde kaitan tapi nak jugak tulis. Berkawan dengan semua orang salah. Tak berkawan dengan semua orang salah. Kawan memilih salah. Kawan tak memilih pun salah. Dah acaner tuuuuu? Nak suruh hidup sorang sorang. Sedih tahu bila niat kita ni disalah takfsir. Kalau sedikit tak mengapa. Tapi kalau disalah tafsir hingga terlalu jauh menyimpang macam mana pula?

"Untuk awak, awak yang duduk jauh disana. Bukan semua orang boleh jadi baik macam awak. Bukan semua orang mampu buat apa yang buat sekarang. Untuk awak juga, bukak minda tu sikit. Tengok kiri kanan. Awak tak boleh harap semua orang ikut kehendak yang awak tentukan. That is never gonna happen. Saya harap awak fikirkanlah apa yang saya dah bagitahu ni."

Fire stone. Its everywhere nowadays. Hard to be avoid. Hurt when stepped on. 

Degree 148

Congrats my very dear sister, Kak Intan. :)

Degree 147

It has been a month since I started back my uni life. It was hectic. It was chaotic. It was superly awesome nevertheless. The housemates are still crazy like before. Even more wackier than before I might add. You girls rocks!

But, indeed of all the fun there were also few unfortunate events occurred. Car accident-s, heartbroken and fights here and there. Maybe this is a test from the high above to see how I survive in hardness. Let me tell you< it was not easy. But I manage. With all the calls, the texts and long walks, my heart feels a little bit better. And thanks to them I am able to be as happy as I am now.

I would say that my days aren't exactly going the way I wanted too. I planned and the plan didn't goes as planned. Disappointed? Yes. Giving up? No. I will make my day livable as I want. As of now, I am on my bed. Laying comfortably minus my pillows as they are all in Perak. Tomorrow, I'm gonna go donate my blood. Gonna start the day with good deeds as should you.

And now I have to go. Have to find three dissertation titles to be submitted tomorrow *i am dead* XD