End 45

I want to tell you that... I appreciate you more than you know.


And,
I may not get to see you as often as I like,
I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night,
But deep in my heart I truly know,
You're the one I love,
And I can't let you go.


♥

End 44

The upside down body system.

Huh! Saya tak boleh bangun lambat. Pelik. Pelik. Last night try tidur lambat. Around 4 la jugak. Tapi pukul 8 je mata dah terbukak. Not because Botak called. Before dia call lagi dah tersedar. Jealous betul dengan certain of my friends yang boleh tidur sampai tengah hari. Bukan la nak sangat bangun lambat tu. Tapi before ni boleh je. Walau tak selewat mana tapi kurang2 pukul 10 ke. Bukan apa. Bila bangun pagi, by the time sampai tengah hari dah tak tahu nak buat. Tahu kenapa?

Haaa! Sebab saya adalah seorang anak dara yang sangat rajin. *siapa lag ink puji kalau bukan diri sendiri?*  :) Every day chores saya consist of doing the dishes, made the bed, basuh baju and jemur. Around 10 in the morning semua kerja tu dah settle. Habis nak buat apa lagi? Adalah at times kena basuh bilik air. Vacuum and mop rumah. Tapi itu semua bukan tiap2 hari. if buat juga, berkilatlah rumah kita! :D Apart from itu semua, online juga adalah satu kemestian. Heh! Online all the time pun bosan juga ok?

And at times if ada mood, I wirte in my blog. Macam sekaranglah! Weee~ Tapi. Tapi. Bukan lama mana pun la menulis tu. Sekejap sangat. Tak makan banyak masa. Bosannya la nk tunggu samapi ke tengah hari. =.=’ Tapi around this time dah tak bosan sangat dah. Sebab En.Boyfriend dah bangun. Yeay! ^^. Oh, dia ini one the people yang saya dengki. Selagi matahari tak tegak atas kepala memang dia takkan bangun. Tak tahu la apa dia buat malam2 kan. If main futsal, faham jugak la penat.

Tapi kalau setakat keluar minum, penat jugak ke dear? :P Jangan marah ye. Hoho. Oh, from noon onwards my time is filled with chatting and downloading movies. Chatting dengan Zaf. Dengan En.Boyfriend. Dengan Haq. Dengan Ramzul. Dengan Wawa. Haa.. Senang kata dengan Geng 21. Merekalah pengisi masa lapang saya yang berjaya. And lately I have a new thing to do. Study. Untuk IELTS. Tak menarik betul. Asal bukak je buku tu, mata ngantuk. Hampeh benar la kan. Bila dah ngantuk memang tak diteruskan la study tu. Tapi tak boleh tidur. Sebab ada orang ajar saya yang tidur petang ni tak elok. Maka, saya merapu la lagi.

Kadang2 bagi ikan makan. Kacau Mr.Bugger. Letak dia atas kereta. Atas lantai. Kadang2 bagi dia makan sayur. Mr. Bugger is a tortoise. Oh. Oh. Sebut pasal animals. Belakang rumah kita ada kittens yang sangat comel. For those yang tidak tahu, I’m a cat lover ok. I used to have cats around the house but they died already. No point of telling why, when and how. Buat sedih je. Back to the story.

Kehidupan petang saya semakin ceria la jugak. Semalam kidnap one of the kitten tu naik atas. Nak tunjuk dekat En.Boyfriend. Tapi kucing tu nakal sangat. Kena letak balik dekat belakang. Tak kesah la. Janji dia cute. Lalalala~ All in all, hidup saya sekarang sangat tunggang langgang. Bye!

The chaotic mind rumbles.

p/s: Petang ini nak lepak dengan Botak. Seronok. Rindu!

End 43

And suddenly I can’t take the loneliness anymore.


Missed.


And I realized things are not as easy as it seems to be.

End 42

Four things that can never be recovered:

The stone after it's thrown;

The word after it's spoken,

The occasion after it's missed,

And the time after it's gone.

End 41 : Random

End 40

Preparation towards a better future is taking another step.

Fulfilling her parents’ wish and hope.

It’s not gonna be easy.

But she will try to make her very best.

Pray for her success.

End 39

My life is unstable.

Reminiscing the old times is not good for my health or my sanity. I’m having roller coaster of emotional today. And when the past starts to haunt? The roller coaster goes faster in twisted way. I have gotten myself a message few hours back.

A message that I felt honoured to be the recipient. Grateful to have a friend who takes me in such ways. But I read it with no feelings. None at all. Why? Because I’m badly hurt. Even with all the happiness around me. You make me cry. And I don’t cry often. You know if I cry then it’s bad.

The trouble you had. The tears you shed.

I was there for you. You come looking for me. But when you’re happy? Where do I stand? At the bottom of your list I supposed. It’s hard for me to live without my best friend. It’s hard for me that I have no one to share my worries. You know that I don’t like being like this. But you kept pushing me towards it.

Yes. I’m not your girlfriend. I have no rights or whatsoever over you. But what happen to your promise that nothing will change? You did change. Changes that I don’t even know how to adapt. I have no idea why. Maybe your girlfriend say something. Or maybe it’s my fault. Who knows? yet, I’m not going to try and find it out because I’m done babe.

Promises.

I hope that whatever reason it is you’re doing this to me better be worth it. And please don’t say that I’m at the highest level in your life. It’s a lie and you know it.

Till then,

Take care.