Hence, this I do.

Terbangun.

Tengok jam.

Its 4:00 a.m.

Damn!

Tersedar awal.

Nk tidur semula tak boleh.

Risau pasal result.

Disebabkan itu, kaki terus melangkah ke PC.

Tunggu few minutes untuk PC itu warm up.

Then gerak ke address ini, istudent.uitm.edu.my

Gembira sekejap sbb dapat masuk sbb semalam server terlalu busy.

Malangnya, gembira itu sekejap sgt.

After click examination result, ini yang keluar.

Stress betul.

Kenapa ini yang terjadi?

Haish!!

Now lagi tak boleh tidur.

Bertambah risau.

Nak cari member, dah sah2 semua tengah lena diulit mimpi.

Berat beg.

The other day, someone told me that my bag is heavy. I'm not sure why because I don't feel it. Haha.
These are the things that always in the bag:
This one is a must, so no number: PURSE~
Others:
1. Handphone.
2. Book or books
3. Socks.
4. House keys.
5. Office keys.
6. Perfume.
7. Compact powder.
8. Eyeliner.
9. Mascara
10. Pendrives.
Last but not least, oil blotter :D
Semua ni, benda2 kecil and ringan. Apa yg berat saya pun tak tahu la~

Mesin fotostat.

Cerita bermula dengan:

Kerja hari ini.

Fill in BQ. Untuk dibind jadi contract. Tebal. 2 hari dh buat. Tak siap2. Haish!~ Tengah mengisi disuruh jadi minah fotostat. *tugas yg sgt tidak digemari* Tapi apa boleh buat, nak tak nak kena buat juga.

Selesai menfotostat sambung balik fill in Bq tu, sambil tu borak dengan akak meja sebelah. Dia baru balik dr Sabah. Ayahanda dia sakit. Tenat jugaklah. Doakan ayah dia cepat sihat ok.

Tengah kami berborak tiba ada satu call. So, akak tu angkat. Apa yg saya dengar, tender, lunch, prepare. Oh, kerja untuk saya lagi. Rupanya ada org mahu collect document. Panas hati! Letter tak reply tiba2 nk dtg collect. Nsb after lunch. 

Siapa yg pernah buat kerja2 buruh memfotostat ni tahu la yg kerja ni sgt leceh dan remeh. Tapi untuk kali ni, tidak bagi saya. Sebab tgh buat kerja tu, ada sorg staff ofis teman. Kami berborak di mesin fotostat. The conversation was:

Him: After you hbs smbg belajar ni, you nk persue higher qualification or terus kerja?

Me: Smbg la. Because I'm only at diploma stage right now. I nk further degree.

Him: Ok. After that you nk buat apa? Master or Ph.D?

Me: *silence*

Him: Let say la you nk kerja. Is it with the government?

Me: I'm not sure. Private maybe. But I haven't think about it yet.

Him: Why not? You should plan your future.

Me: I know. But at the moment I'm planning to complete my studies first. *garu kepala*

Him: That is good. But not enough. You should plan further. Now and future time is going to be different. But why you prefer private?

Me: They pay more of course.

Him: LOL

*Otak dah mula proses apa yg dia cakap*

Me: Its true kan. I think it is. * pathetic kan my answer?*

Him: Let me give you something to think on. How is your life right now? Your living condition. 

Me: Living condition?

Him: Yes. Your family. How do you think your father plans his life? You see, man have greater responsible. They have to provide for their family. If not, all things will go wrong. Try to be in your father's shoes.

Me: *stupidly* Be a man u mean?

Him: *he laugh* No. I mean, think like him. What should I do to provide for my family. See, it doesn't matter with who you work. Its how you plan your life. Working is just part of the plan. 

At this point. saya dah tak faham tujuan conversation nih.

Me: Hm, I don't really get what your saying. But I get the gist. My father work hard and we live quite and easy life. So you want me to plan ahead so that I can have life like this in the future. Betul?

Him: Lebih kurang la. But think more of it. Take a step back, re-evalute and plan. Then you will see your future life more clearer.

Lepas dia cakap macam tu, dia gerak balik table dia. As for me, I gather the photostated paper and start binding it. While doing this job, I can't stop thinking about what he said. Semua dia touch. Study, family, aim. All this while, tak pernah pun terfikir sampai jauh macam tu.

To think back, all of it is true. I really should plan my life better. Eventhough the journey is still long, If I don't start now, then when will I?

From now on, I will start planning to have a great future.

Makan punya cerita.

Office takde org tapi kerja sgt banyak. Nk dijadikan cerita, time lunch tadi saya keluar tapau nasi. Before tu gi bank in cheque :D. Tak lama. Sebab office ada cleaner tgh buat kerja so kena balik cepat. Masuk ofis nmpk ada org. Tanya2, rupanya diorg contractor. Nk beli tender. Kelam kabut prepare documents and drawings. Tak cukup tangan. Ye la. Letter invitation tak hntr pun lagi, tapi dh smpi pulak contractornya. Kerja boss la nih! *tak puas hati* Nak tak nak kena buat jgk la. Rushing sana sini dlm office. 

After settle diorg2 tu, then boss panggil pulak. Suruh check email. Tak boleh check sendiri ke? *tak puas hati lagi*. Susah dapat boss macam ni. Ish. Habis buat kerja boss, sambung plak kerja supervisor. Tiba-tiba semua org balik office. And tiba-tiba semua org suruh buat kerja. Photostat la. Fax la. Buat air la. Kerja. Kerja. Kerja. Around 3.30 baru dapat duduk dekat table tanpa apa-apa kerja. *ada kerja.tp tak penting.* 

Suddenly hp bunyi, time nk ambik hp tetiba nampak bekas makanan. Huaaa!!! Baru ingat. Nasi tak makan lagi. Gila benar. Tapi itulah hakikat dia. Maka, tanpa berlengah lagi, saya ke pantri isi air dalam botol then mengisi perut yg dah main mcm2 lagu.


Heh! Kena marah sebab tak makan. Sorry, next time tak buat lagi. *no guarantee here* ><

Fooling around.

Kerja saya sekarang berjalan. Smpi je weekend mesti tak duduk rumah. Last week saya hang out di Sunway. A week before di KLCC. Week before that dekat Kuala Kubu Bharu. Ibu pun dah bising, asyik keluar je. Hehe. Nk buat mcm mana. Saya stress. *alasan je nih*

Minggu ni saya nak ke Kuantan. Mahu attend wedding pet sis saya time high school dulu. And saya pergi dengan Yana. Oh, rindu dengan dia. Dah lama tak hang out. Dia busy. Saya pun busy. Kebetulan pulak cik Fatin Nadhirah pulang ke Malaysia. Oh, kami akan crash dia punya rumah. Tak sabar. Tak sabar. Nk bergosip. Nk ber'pillow talk'. Basically, typical girls nite la.

Cik Tin and Cik Yano, tak sabar nk jumpa anda. :D

Kena cari present untuk my sis.

Apa nk bg nih? =.="

Satu

PENAT!~

Banyak sangat benda kena fikir skrg.

Adoyai.

Mana nk cari semangat?

p/s: Millie, saya jeles!~

Susah hati.

Hati ada banyak benda nak cakap. Ada banyak benda nak luah. Tapi dengan siapa nak buat semua tu. Skrg sgt depress. Teman nak lepak plak sangat2 busy. 2 hari berturut outstation, penat sampai tak boleh nak angkat call. Sedih!~ Now, every task saya dapat, semua imperfectly done. Sebab hati dah tak seronok nak berpraktikal. *Alin ni merungut je pasal praktikal. tapi pergi jugak office everday. Nak buat macam mana, saya aim untuk ke oversea, maka pointer perlu diperfectkan lagi.

Hey awak. Ingat janji hari tu? Yang awak dengar problem saya tanpa tanya satu soalan pun. Boleh? Otak saya dah tak berfungsi dengan sempurna sekarang. Emosi saya sungguh tak stabil. Saya nangis, mengamuk and terasa untuk sebab yang sangat bodoh. Tak tahu kenapa. Ouh, perlu ice cream and cookies.

Dalam otak, ayat macam2 ada, tapi bila type jadi pelik. So, saya stop menulis. Later saya sambung.

P/s: Dekteen, saya mahu ice cream saya~:D